New music first

Posted in Uncategorized on 11/28/2011 by biggryan04

Not really new music. Just music

Jesus H. Tits this chick can kill it.

Oof this is killer

Last one from her but this shit is nuts



Hey Mates of State, stop being so fucking cute. You’re making it difficult for the rest of us



Stephen Malkmus gives no shits

Stephen Malkmus = a better Julian Casablancas in 1990

Really what I’m saying is Stephen Malkmus is god

My life (an alcoholic’s cofession)

Posted in Uncategorized on 11/14/2011 by biggryan04

A series of never ending explanations and excuses for things I never meant to happen.

I’m a very moody individual. This means at one moment I can be happy and the next be angry or despondent or everything at once. Most of the time I try to keep my mouth shut because opening it in the past has fucked me. I try to learn from past mistakes sometimes.

All I’m saying is this tool shall pass


Get it?

One of the best bands to grace Denton. Hot girl who speaks French & plays violin, Musically perfect, and Freddy is a nice dude. They moved to Budapest though, so good for them.

We’re all going straight to hell

She started wondering, what is the profit here.

Never underestimate how truly wonderful and amazing you really are

Not going back

Posted in Uncategorized on 11/08/2011 by biggryan04

Times they are a changing.

I’m lonely, very lonely most of the time. It started out kind of nice but has become tedious. At an age where everyone is finding someone I’m just drinking more and more everyday. I actually miss the mundaneness of a relationship that is already past the honeymoon phase, those times where you get home from work, chat about your day, make dinner, and give the lady a foot massage while watching terrible television. She’ll end up passing out on the couch but you wake her up and drag her to bed and not tired sneak off to play video games or jerk off or something.

I actually fucking miss that most. It is a real comfort to have that shared intimacy without the pressure of having to even put on pants.

I really miss that.

Someday it’ll happen again right? It can’t be this boring forever can it?

Drunk update (DRUPDATE)?

Posted in Uncategorized on 11/04/2011 by biggryan04

The only thing that keeps me going is the fact that some day we will all be dead.

Morbid yes. Fact also yes.

If you actually read this blog please stop. It’ll probably go down hill from here, if it hasn’t already.

I need you, I don’t need you.

Oh god if I was only a little older I would understand Right?

Fall is here again

Posted in Uncategorized on 10/23/2011 by biggryan04

And I’m still alone










Oh to be young

The Rentals win over Weezer in the long run

And to end it with a few songs from maybe my favorite fall album ever


I’m expecting you to listen to all of these there will be a test

Posted in Uncategorized on 10/09/2011 by biggryan04

It’s getting harder and harder to even get out of bed every day.

Yup this is happening again.

See you all on the other side.

Bottle of whiskey, bottle of wine, should keep me happy for a short amount of time.

This rain may be getting to me, not in the way I usually like it.

Red blue black yellow green gray orange purple brown

Lets make a baby to this song

What’s wrong with having a little fun?

Posted in Uncategorized on 09/29/2011 by biggryan04

I’ve resigned myself to being in Denton for the remainder of my schooling (2 years at least). I’m going to check out my first choice in grad schools today. The fact that I am going to be here means that when shit gets bad I need to look on the bright side. This becomes difficult when someone keeps saying how much Denton sucks. Really, Denton is the best place in the DFW area for a young 20 something to live. It’s totally little Austin and pretty damn fun. I’ve become a regular at places. I’m not sure if anytime before this I was a regular at a place.

I think I’ve found the right balance of stuff in my life. Except the lack of sex and a job, everything is going pretty damn well.

This guy is an amazing composer. Without him dudes like The Books wouldn’t exist

Music for 18 musicians is wonderful if you’re a stoner

Confirmation

Posted in Uncategorized on 09/25/2011 by biggryan04

I have finally had confirmation that what I’m working toward is where I should go.

Things are looking up.

Remember this face.

Brian Setzer got old

2 blogs 1 day

Posted in Uncategorized on 09/20/2011 by biggryan04

So I think I’ve decided where temporary life is heading, which will eventually lead to longer term life. My plan as of this afternoon is to stick around Denton for a few years, I’ve found a grad school that will accept my shitty GPA to get my Licensed Professional Counselor masters and I’m gathering all the things I need to apply right now. I’m not sure how I feel about the whole thing in the grand scheme of things. Denton has gotten better recently. I’m beginning to enjoy it more. I don’t know what my living situation will be after these six months. It seems like Sam and I can’t go a month with out one of us pissing off the other. I’d rather be his friend than his roommate if we’re going to end up resenting each other. I do like the street we live on but the house is very small. More for a dating couple than two dudes. Oh well I guess we’ll figure it all out when it comes. I just need to keep repeating “this is a good decision” until I fully believe it.



Black and white

Posted in Uncategorized on 09/20/2011 by biggryan04

Women will always be an enigma to me. Forever confusing and always crazy. Usually I’m confused by people in general but today it solely falls on the shoulders of women. Fucking women… I’ll never understand the lot of ’em.